5 months is over! Man, time flies fast.

It has been fantastic 5 months – mostly.

I have worked for 2 of the EXCOM at my firm – Chief Sales Officer and Chief Delivery Officer. In addition, I also worked for the EXCOM of the largest bank of Canada, though for a short time. How many get an opportunity like that?

And I got the second of the award.

I traveled to Toronto. But the thrilling one is the drive to Chennai. The times at IBR was just amazing; can never forget that.

Getting over with the psychological fear of water and learning to swim was a feat on its own. It is pity that I am not able to continue with it; but hey, I got it over with.

But of all, the greatest thing is me working out day after day and loosing 5 kilos and 4 inches. I feel damn good. This process has been wonderful. I feel young and good.

If it was all great; the matters of heart is worse. My attempts at love & friendship have been disaster. I expect too much and get disappointed, hurt and I pull away into my den. I am able to get connected; but building a good friendship – that is a different story and I suck at it.

Guess this is my weakness.

I’ve tried to improvise on this but have failed. I’m stronger wherever it just concerns me (personally). But when another soul is involved, I just break my heart with all the expectations and other stuff that goes along with it. It is like someone put their hand grabs a piece of the heart. It pains and I’m not able to bear it. Enough of beating my body with the treadmill.

I’ve decided to concentrate on my strengths and leave the weakness alone. May be it is not the right time; or may be I need to just meet the right person who will help me build a good friendship or whatever. So rest of the year will go on with me building on my core strength.

I am sure rest of the year is filled with lots of challenges, a painful good-bye and surprises (hopefully pleasant ones).

Am I ready for it?