In spite of regular medication, wheezing doesn’t seem to go away. It takes me almost an hour in the morning to get back on my feet. This also means, no exercises – with frequent wheezing, my nerves are so weak.
With the addiction to exercise, this means that, I don’t feel good – first because of feeling sick and second of not doing the exercise.
This in turn means that I am starting the day in a wrong note!
At office, I am loaded with work – Handling Finance System, CRM System, Upgrade of Finance System and getting ready for SOX audit. First I wasn’t very particular about the SOX audit, but overtime, as I realized the impact of non-compliance, I am now very scared (if we fail SOX audit the company will be de-listed from NASDAQ and CEO/CFO will end up in jail). Every morning, I ask myself, if I’m doing the right thing and also if I’m doing it right.
So physical and official is no good.
As I said in an earlier post, I took a drive to beat the banality. Well, as much as the trip was fun, the photos that I took were all washed out. I am upset that I screwed up. I wanted some of the shots to be ‘given-my-best’. When I took the photos, I did; but it turned out that I am not a good photographer!
Without a steady and strong friendship (face-to-face; not long distance), I am not getting the miserable feelings out of me. I should accept though I get regular mails from KD & LA. Even Xavier called me and was on phone for about an hour. As much as I appreciate all of this, I still feel a loner!
So to sum up:
Personal: Not good
Physical: Not good
Official: Not good
Emotional: Not good
Which means, my confidence is the lowest in the past 2 years (I’ve hit rock bottom earlier, but the situations were very different then. I managed to get back on my feet 2 years back; but oops, I screwed up!)
But there is one thing that is going good; damn good – spiritual. I’m getting very much a spiritual person: I’m not discriminating any spirits – Vodka, Tequilla, Rum, Brandy or whatever.
What Jesus can’t heal in the day, a peg of Whisky heals in the night!