I’ve said many times here that I’m going through a tough time, personally. One after another has been draining the mental fortitude. I also said about the electrical shock that I escaped.

I’m not sure if I mentioned in this blog; but about a year and half back, I had to fire an (lady) employee. As a matter of fact, I was the first one to fire someone in this department. I’m not particularly proud of it (in fact I went through couple of sleepless nights on that), but that was a professional decision. I discussed that with HR, the head of the department; we provided two chances for improvement; only then we decided to carry out the decision.

Year and a half is a long time. But two days back, I got an SMS from this gal, in which she said, she was going through a trouble and she was not able to concentrate and I found it easy to fire her!

I didn’t know how to react. Firing someone is in itself a tough call; and having to read this after so many months is another disturbing one. On one side I felt pity and another angry. I didn’t respond immediately, but next day I brought it to the notice of the head of the department and the head of HR. Though they were completely supportive of me, I didn’t have a pleasant feeling sitting through these discussions and meetings.

It is much more a disturbance as I go through troubled times.

As the things go from bad to bitter to worse, I feel like crying aloud. I wish I had someone on whom I can lay my heads and felt comforted. But I have none!

Hope I pass through these days keeping my sanity.

P.S.: I know I’ve been only lamenting on this space. This is the only place where I vent out my feelings. If you find it tiresome, please come back after few months.