am sitting in the office with the back pain becoming unbearable. i’m almost in tears. i am not able to walk. i hope to get home in single piece and recover.

my (self) confidence is at lowest point now. i hope to recover that too.

Update: subsequently i went to the doc and she says either this is a simple nerve disorder or early stages of spondylitis. Hmm…hope it is not the later. she has given medication. probably wat i need is bed rest. but it takes a lot of effort just to lie down and even to turn to one side. it is excruciatingly painful. i normally dont prefer to weep; but i culdn’t bear the pain.

another update: The night was insanely painful – to start with i culdn’t lie down; it abt 10 min to lie down; then i culdn’t turn any direction; slowly i managed to position myself well; but i culdn’t sleep until well over midnight; i kept waking up with nightmares of being in a wheelchair or something like that. after couple of painkillers, now i feel little ok; i am doing some stretching exercises to get back to normal.