As most of my friends know, I have gone through a lot of ‘bad’ things – broken relations, bad health, financial loss, disappointment, loneliness and so on.

But this year seems to be the culmination of all bad luck. Personal life is driving me nuts; though not this year, but in the past 2 years I have lost couple of lakhs and have not yet recovered from it; then the roof of the house collapsed; then I crashed into electric pole (which could’ve been fatal and I wonder why not); I suffered from severe spasm; now the cylinders are stolen, its 4 days and I am still going after the Police to get it retrieved.

One thing is good things don’t happen any more. And its another thing that bad things pile up.

It is extremely difficult to go through this phase, without any support. It becomes much more difficult when folks stand and point fingers on you. It destroys any little amount of self-confidence that I’m left with.

I am not sure of the reasons, but so far I’ve failed to build any meaningful friendship/relationship so far. When I need the most, it looks like I am all the more lonely and people have gone so far away. It only makes me to go into my shell more and more.

I don’t feel good that I have been only posting ‘bad’ news on this blog. I want to write something good, but its not happening. And I am tired. I feel like crying out loud; cry out so loud to empty my heart out. But I am not able to.

So I have decided to go back to my old style of writing diary in the way of letters to the imaginary friend. When I grew up, I had that practice for a very long period. It took me sometime to come out of it and mingle with people. Now I am going back.

I already bought a good notebook. So if you don’t see any post, you know what I am doing.

By the way, let me tell you that I really enjoyed writing this blog. It was fun sharing my life with my friends dispersed all over. I hope I will be able to come back with some good news. If it doesn’t happen for a while, I might even de-commission this site.

Until then, good bye.