When I was in Belgium, i.e. about 5 years back, I used to hate this holiday season. I thought the decorations were pompous, get togethers were superficial and celebrations were meaningless. Retrospectively, I view such hatred as a mere reflection of my depressed state. I went through a severe relationship issues and it made me feel as a complete failure; though in reality, I wasn’t a failure at all, when that one particular issue was pushed aside.

Even after that relationship issue was resolved and eventually I got married, I continued to harbour those feeling, although to a smaller extent.

However last year, at around this time, my mental models went through an absolute change with respect to this issue. I wasn’t bitter; I wasn’t hateful; in fact I was happier than ever.

Again, I believe it was a reflection of my state. Or may be it was a reflection of how I viewed my state. I thought, I was raising myself up from shambles – I had a happy marriage; I was becoming an independent consultant; I was going to be part of making this country little more competetive. It was all good.

And this year has been even better. I am the consultant & program manager for a new business vehicle introduced by govt of India; this vehicle has been welcomed and most talked about in the media; I sponsored a holy land trip for my parents; my earning capacity increased; but all of this become pale compared to the one fact that I gave birth to another life.

Given all the good things, its no wonder I’m full of happy thoughts & looking forward for the holiday season.