Got informed by Francis that the new web host is having hardware failure and hence it will be sometime before this domain is switched to the new host. If you are reading this entry then it is still in the old domain.

Since it is the 200th post, I was kind of hoping for better news so that I could write something different from the same banal depressive entries. But hey, here I am with nothing good to share about. Actually it is entirely the opposite that happened. Over the past weeks, my confidence sunk to its lowest levels. Though I had tough times in the past, there was at least a thin thread of confidence and hope that ‘This too shall pass’. Currently my confidence is so low (rather so absent) that in the morning, I was even scared to get out of home. I just wanted to roll myself into the blanket and lie in the bed, forever. However, I dragged myself and took baby steps and did one after another, rather slowly. At office, I put on a bright smile and got on with work. I strongly believe that in my earlier firm, I was so much aloof and seclusive which got me into trouble. In the evening, negative thoughts flooded me so much – like there is going to be an accident or something. Yet, I got home safe, driving slowly. I took a walk on the beach and gathered some strength to carry on.

Someone said, ‘I could live with a broken heart; but not with a broken spirit’. Very true!