To tell you the truth, I don’t know. We have been preparing him in the way that we know. We don’t even know if he understand all of this. But we keep talking about the baby.
It is an ongoing discussion between Rani & I how gender if the baby will impact him.
We will soon find out.
When I am home, Piyo demands all attention. And he insists to aid me and Rani and expecting a ‘Thank You’. This of course interrupt our flow of doing things and definitely delays whatever we are doing at that moment. This infuriates Rani. Add to it, I forbid scolding him without logic – my logic is that at one end we train him to be independent and on the other we want him to give that independence back when it is inconvenient to us. Of course there are times I too get frustrated.
So the frequent scene at home resembles an irritated sister nagging a brother. And I am the mediator. Nice huh?
Rani tells me piyo was born sometime at this stage. Our gyn has said that there is no scientific proof that second kid will follow the first in this delivery pattern, but she has seen it happen. She has asked us to be ready.
I had thought a lot about keeping Rani here in Delhi. There are lot of unknowns and time and again I get chill that all should go well.
Next 2 months is going to go tensed.
Wow! can’t believe I setup the first blog entry on Aug 5th, 2003. Some days, I blogged regularly and some time not. But it is a good autobiography!
What all I have gone through.
If you are interested, here is the first post:
http://follow.jjude.com/2003/08/05/finally-there-is-something-working/
Though winter started late this year, it’s already colder than previous years. Today there was heavy fog and visibility was just 10 steps. Scary!
Though I have been in colder climates, experience here in Delhi is different in many aspects.
Managing Piyo is a challenge too, as he doesn’t understand the fuss behind wearing socks & three layers of clothes.
Just a month back my father-in-law passed away. It was a solemn moment.
Today I heard of another. Today early morning, Dr Ananadaraj passed away. I owe their family quiet a bit. When I went through difficult period, it was his wife who said, “he is like a son to us. We will look for an alliance for him.” And they did. If I have a good life today it’s because of their family. When I heard the news this morning, a deep grief engulfed me.
May be its compounded by what my mom told me yesterday – “Time has come to say bye.”
I strongly believe she will live longer and see many of her prayers answered. But when I see everyone of her age pass away one by one and when these words come out of her, grief fills me.
I know one day they will pass away. I have thought of it many times. It’s going to be a lonely world without them. My dad has been a strong pillar of hope all these years & mom is the glue binding all of us with her jokes, wisdom & love. Sure, I will get busy with kids, family and all. But a world without them will still be lonely.
It will be grievous if I would regret, after they are gone, for things I could have done but didn’t do. I got whole list of things. Just few got ticked so far, like going to holy land, holding grand-kids. But there are others like taking them on a cruise trip to Srilanka, going to Vatican, Lourde & Padhuva and so on. I pray that the Lord will give them long healthy life.
I can live a lonely life but not a life of regret.
It is as though it happened yesterday. But already we are here for 3 years in Delhi.
Only here I have not been as mobile as everywhere else. I dont have many friends as to go for a weekend outing. I have not gone for a movie. It has been almost a year since I took my camera. I have not been to swimming pool at all.
But you know what?
These are my best three years.