I don’t exactly believe in New Year Resolutions; one doesn’t have to wait for the beginning of the year to start something, or stop something.

But no doubt that New Year rings in a momentum for such though process. It solidifies the plan; it strengthens one’s resolve.

So here are the things I would be pursuing this year; I would be happy if I could get these done.

• First is to learn something new – most probably it will be music; it may be even yoga; or better both! I already bought a Yamaha PSR 403; need to find a good music instructor though.
• Next is to improve what I learnt – photography. I haven’t done anything with my camera for the past 3-4 months. I like photography and I hope to improve this skill this year; which means I need to take a lot of photos.
• And I need to make and keep a good friend. In the past 2-3 years, I changed my outlook and made contacts with few with whom I wanted to build a lasting friendship. Don’t know if it is the curse of the domain that I am in, but we go our own ways after few months. It is really difficult to build a meaningful friendship on the e-way.
• I have got few others as well – improving FOW (the photo album software that I wrote); publish at least one technical article this year. But these are not priority.

So what’s yours? Whatever it is, my wishes for you.

As you all know, my parents are here in Bangalore for the past few months. They are staying in my sister’s house.
I took a day off on 31st and went to her house. It was a nice and peaceful end of the year and a beginning of the year. In the evening, they all came home and we ordered Pizza and had some good fun.

So what do I look forward in the year?
: I’ve stopped taking care of my health. Especially with the winter, it has become difficult to be on water. Hopefully I can start working out and swimming.
: I’ve also decided to learn Yoga. Hopefully it will help me control wheezing.
: I’ve been learning Keyboard music for about 2 weeks now. (2 days class in a week – so I’ve attended 4 classes). My brother-in-law is also learning (he has a private teacher!) and we exchange notes. In about 6 months, I should be able to read music notes and play little decently.

So that is it for now. Isn’t it fantastic that I am getting back to enjoy life?

This year has been a mix – first part of the year was superb and the latter part was awful. Both parts were exceptional.
I wanted to write a lot in this post. Yet, words are not coming out. Whatever I would say will be a repeat.
So let me just say good bye to this year.

This time of the year is a very difficult time generally. More so, when I am sick and lying in bed through the day. I had severe cold and high fever and tasteless bud that I felt awful through Christmas day. I am still feeling pretty sick, though I’ve recovered little after taking so much of medicines.

But the weekend was better. I went to a pre-launch new-year party and I enjoyed the music a lot. It was amazing. The drums and keyboard players kept the crowd mesmerized.

Also during the weekend we, as a family, went to ‘Bangalore Central’, a shopping mall. The smile that I saw in my mom when she saw the huge Santa or when she had Chinese Dosa is incomparable. Then later that day, I played chess with my dad. He taught me to play chess and after more than 15 years, I played with him. I did win; but I enjoyed the time that I spent playing with him.

As I went through so many of the difficulties, there was one (last) difficulty that I had to go through. It was of course very painful one.

When you (especially an introvert) take so much effort in building a friendship, it is rather painful to see it wither. But it takes two to tango; and sometimes beyond your best intentions and effort, it does happen. And you can do nothing but to watch it.

Anyway that was not the topic of this entry. (In fact I deleted a post on that topic, as I thought there is no point in posting it).

Over the weekend, I moved to a new apartment. Too many bad things were happening in the old house, though I liked it very much. I am not into bad-luck-good-luck-omens. But at one time, I decided enough is enough and let us move on (including the withered friendship!)

It is a three bed-room apartment – very spacious: in fact my whole family was here during the weekend. It was tiring weekend. Slowly I am settling down in the new place. I am planning to furnish a bit. Not much, just a little bit.

Today evening I got the internet too. I am posting this from the new house.

Hopefully this will be a new beginning!

Troubles come in many forms – in new ways.

In the current work culture, I’m very careful – especially with gals; anyone can blame on sexual harassment. I try my best to be fair and careful – correct when needed, but within limits.

The issue is that every one wants to be associated with success but no one wants to go through the pain to achieve it. Last week in the team meeting, I corrected one of the gal team-mate that she should take responsibility in getting her task completed rather than always asking others to do her work. She went and complained to my boss that it was wrong of me to have corrected her in front of the team! And she complained that I am always targeting her. When my boss tried to find more details, he thought she has an attitude issue and tried to reason with her. But then she started to cry and say that the whole team is targeting her. Once she started to cry my boss became nervous.

He later called me and warned me that this could go in the wrong direction. He has already informed the HR of this. He is now in Malaysia. He is back next week. Only after I will know the results. Hmmm..not what I want at this time.

Also yesterday after swimming, I was walking back to my car and I slipped and fell down (believe me, I have no idea how it happened – it was a plain surface and I didn’t trip. I was walking and just like that I fell down). I got my pant torn and got bruises on the knee and the palm. I have no idea where everything leads to.

I am pretty much convinced that 2008 is going to be a great year. Doubt is if I will see it?

ok its another ‘bad’ post…but it is not intentional rather it is not what i wanted.

today, being a holiday, i went to my sister’s house and had a good time. i forgot all about what was happening (rather not happening). and it is little before midnight that i drove home. now i noticed that the glass window of the car (at driver seat) is not coming up. 🙁 i normally dont wind-down this glass, but i did it today while parking and hmmm…its a mistake.

with the recent theft, i am bit concerned if it will be safe in the parking slot; but i dont have an option. i got to go to the workshop, first thing in the morning.

As most of my friends know, I have gone through a lot of ‘bad’ things – broken relations, bad health, financial loss, disappointment, loneliness and so on.

But this year seems to be the culmination of all bad luck. Personal life is driving me nuts; though not this year, but in the past 2 years I have lost couple of lakhs and have not yet recovered from it; then the roof of the house collapsed; then I crashed into electric pole (which could’ve been fatal and I wonder why not); I suffered from severe spasm; now the cylinders are stolen, its 4 days and I am still going after the Police to get it retrieved.

One thing is good things don’t happen any more. And its another thing that bad things pile up.

It is extremely difficult to go through this phase, without any support. It becomes much more difficult when folks stand and point fingers on you. It destroys any little amount of self-confidence that I’m left with.

I am not sure of the reasons, but so far I’ve failed to build any meaningful friendship/relationship so far. When I need the most, it looks like I am all the more lonely and people have gone so far away. It only makes me to go into my shell more and more.

I don’t feel good that I have been only posting ‘bad’ news on this blog. I want to write something good, but its not happening. And I am tired. I feel like crying out loud; cry out so loud to empty my heart out. But I am not able to.

So I have decided to go back to my old style of writing diary in the way of letters to the imaginary friend. When I grew up, I had that practice for a very long period. It took me sometime to come out of it and mingle with people. Now I am going back.

I already bought a good notebook. So if you don’t see any post, you know what I am doing.

By the way, let me tell you that I really enjoyed writing this blog. It was fun sharing my life with my friends dispersed all over. I hope I will be able to come back with some good news. If it doesn’t happen for a while, I might even de-commission this site.

Until then, good bye.

I had too many things planned out this weekend. Not anything exciting. Just wanted to finish few pending things (which has been pending for a long time).

But in the morning I found out that the gas cylinder is stolen! I stay in apartments and the cylinders are all kept in the underground floor. There was no security guard yesterday night and someone, obviously who has been watching for a while, has stolen it. Irony is only mine is gone. Others are intact!

Just went to the police station to lodge a complaint. They work on their own sweet way. They are aware of such issues (apparently 130 cases were lodged in the past 2 months!). Only in the evening one of the policeman will visit the house and take the complaint. As I run with only one cylinder, now I’ll have to look out for alternatives for cooking.

Damn, not a good start for the weekend.