Since December, I have lost 3 kgs and about 3 inches. But going beyond that seems an insurmountable task. Partly it is because I still take much calorie

I said earlier that I decided to wear a mask and be happy, no matter how I feel inside. What I feel inside would be just for me and I would deal with it myself in solitude; especially outside of office hours and company.

On Saturday, I drove to Hosur, just for the heck of it. There was traffic
diversions and so on, but I wasn’t heading anywhere with a plan. So I was okay
with it. In Hosur, I stopped my car near a road-side coffee shop, and was
listening to few melodies. I wondered in such a big, big world, I could stay in
a place and be an absolute stranger!

The Hosur trip did cheer me up. I used to do this a lot in Belgium and
sometimes in Chennai. This is the first time I did inBangalore. I am planning to do more often.

Some of the colleagues do tell me that I am very happy and cheerful man. Hmm..I
laughed to myself, ‘I am a good actor’.

And there are some good news and….

First good news came by on Tuesday. My boss told me that he nominated me for
the CEO award (the highest award in the company). Of course I am not lucky and
it slipped. But the very fact that I was nominated in a 2000 member company is
in itself a flattering one.

There is better news….

On Wednesday, I was awarded a departmental award. If you remember, this is the
second award within six months. Reaping the fruits of all the risks that I
took.

And the best news….

Today I ran for 6 kms with a speed of 8.7 kms.hr. I am pretty impressed with my
stamina, given the fact that I also have asthma. Totally I do 8 kms in 62 min!
I have lost 3 inches since I started in December. This is without going on
extensive diet or stopping drinks or so on. If I do all of that, probably I
will be slim in no time! 🙂 I am planning to have the same routine and if all
happens well, then by end of May I should return to 33 inches.

The mask seems to have its magic. I have a choice either to be an introvert or
be a liar. All along I’ve done the first maintaining my integrity; now is the
time to switch roles. But how much of energy I have to fool all?

Time to put back the mask
To giggle and bluff;
To seem funny and happy
Hiding tears and bleeds;
Letting go of inner desires;

It isn

I am enduring.

For this too shall pass; and better things are yet to come.

Q: Did anyone fool you on April Fools Day?
A: Yes. Life is fooling me every single day

There is a scene in Mozhi in which the male protagonist tells a little anecdote to the female protagonist. It was one told to him by his grandma.

I don’t know where I am heading to. Lots of questions/confusion in my mind. Feelings of anger, loneliness, distress, disappointment and being abandoned overwhelmed me throughout the week. Obvious reaction of me was withdrawal. Whatever events bound to happen this weekend will further aggravate my feelings and withdrawal.

I only hope that ‘This too shall pass’.

Most of my readers are extroverts.

I am still amazed at the amount of energy LA had in transforming absolute strangers into good friends.

AKN can be with a crowd of people almost the whole day and can go home and still go out partying!

If I introduce AKN and LA, probably they will ditch me and go out partying with each other

For the past two days, I am on the treadmill and I feel good about it. I am trying to get to 8 km/hr. So far I am at 7 km/hr. I am fully drained by the time I finish the mill. To go to 8, I need to improve my stamina, which again means I need to forgo drinking, smoking and