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Just another day
I woke up with wheezing.
It took me almost two hour to get to my feet. Not wanting to let go of continuity, I did get on the treadmill. To my surprise I stayed a full hour on it.
Then I mopped the house; washed curtains; washed car. Pff….bitten by a cleaning bug. While resting in between these cleaning, I watched bit of ‘Gladiator’ and ‘Ullam Kettkumae’ (I like both of these movies).
For dinner, sister, brother-in-law and I went to a near-by resturant. I had Pizza Margherita and a fine Red Wine. A good kick for the year.
It is so hard to let go
This year has been exceptionally good.
Professionally speaking, I’ve never been so proud of myself. I took over a sinking project, stabilized it and even released new modules. From the organization’s perspective this application is essential and hence I was and still in radar of the top guys of the organization. It is one thing to work hard and another to be recognized for it. This year I was given the department award. In addition, one of my team member got it. And I’ve recommended the other one. So far there is no contest for the award and hope she gets it.
The whole work setting is perfect – understanding boss, appreciative clients, co-operative team, satisfying job and topping all, I got recognized.
Also through-out the year, I mingled with the team well and am glad about the balance that I maintained with all.
Even personally, I changed for better in few aspects. Beginning of the year, I broke my shell and went out on a department team event. Though I avoided subsequent events, this trip was a major change in my personality (In the 12 years of experience, I would’ve been in 2 or 3 group trips!).
I managed to travel to Malpe, Hampi and Madikeri. For the first time here in India, I drove that far (to Madikeri). I would’ve liked to travel more, but time and other constraints didn’t permit me.
I went on a work-out schedule and the results are positive.
And am I forgetting something here? Oh! yes, I got married. Yes. That was a huge change in my otherwise introvert personality.
As one can see, I am finishing the year with a positive note. No other year I have been so positive and enthusiastic.
As much as it is positive, it is hard to let go something so wonderful.
Am back
After four days in CBE, today morning I came back to Bng. I got back all the energy after I sat in front of my first-love (control your thoughts – I mean the laptop).
As in every vacation time, I prefer not to be disturbed by office calls. In my opinion, if a manager does his job well during regular days and also if the transition is done properly, then there should be no need for being disturbed during vacation time. Sure it can also mean that you are not that needed (which is what I proclaim – no one is indispensable).
But that is theory. In practice, it almost never happens. There is some landmine which you missed proving the Murphy
Something different
Tonight I am going to Coimbatore for Christmas. This is the first time, I am going to be away from family for Christmas while in India. Add to that I am going to be with people I still don
Week 3 progress
Another week of good progress. And by the end of 3 weeks I lost one inch on the waist. But now is the holiday season and tonight I am going to Coimbatore. Lots of sweets and food. With no exercise, I am sure I will gain that quickly. If I get 5 weeks of continuous exercise, then I can be slim and trim again. Hopefully by end of Feb, I will be so.
My little prayer
I fold my hands
And kneel down to pray
Not for an abundant life
Nor to save me from strife
My prayer is simple –
Let me live in Love
Loving every breath I take
Loving each moment I live
Loving the ones in my life
And loving everything I do
A simple prayer, I do
Let me live in love
Grant me my prayer.
Spolier: Not that I am becoming spiritual. As I drove back home, these words resonated in me reflecting my situation. I decided to have a photo echoing these words. I wanted to have a shadow of folded hands. But the light source I had casted too much of shadow. So I settled with a cross made of tooth-pick! I lighted it with a torch from above the camera. Hope you enjoy.
What love is…
Going through Sophie’s blogroll, I landed on this post. Very expressive about love. I can very well relate to this. I have been there and know what it is. Again for the purpose of preservation here it is:
Love happens, one can’t consciously fall in love..love is unreasonable..love is loving what your lover loves..love is something which doesn’t change at any cost..love is honoring, respecting..love teaches you forgiving..love is when you don’t look what wrong the person did..love is which grows more, the more you get to know the person..one who is hurt in love, will know the value of love..love is when you don’t have to compromise…love is where there are no questions asked and no answers unsaid..love is understanding..loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you and trusting them not..you can’t be lovers if you are not friends first..love is when the entire world seems to be that person..love is not about losing or winning..love is when that hug brings the unthought warmth..love is madness..love is when you can’t hide blushing on remembering the person..love is not loving for the sake of love..in love you become most vulnerable..that love is not a love if its not forever..love is when brain stops working..love is when everything around looks new and fresh..love is not lust..love is when you eagerly look forward for every day..love is sacrifice..love is not deceiving..love is when all your senses will be yearning for that person..love is accepting the person the way they are..in love, you feel sex without love is an empty experience..love is not judging or evaluating..love is when you don’t need a reason to kiss..love is where you don’t have to say sorry or thank you..love is not dominating..love is giving irrespective of you receive it or not..love is when your heart takes over your brain..love is surrendering completely..love is when silence speaks more than words..love is when you feel very special..love is when you can close your eyes and rest on the person’s shoulder not fearing anything..love is food for soul..love is when you feel like two rivers rushing to merge into ocean..what is done out of love takes over good or evil..love is not being cautious..love is when the poet inside you wakes up..love is one medicine for all pain..
Reflecting my mood
I always liked Sophia‘s poems. She pens well. After a long time, she posts something which makes me wonder if she somehow read my mind. For the sake of preservation, I am re-producing her poem here:
what is that pain?
or is it just my heart that screams?
tears mask my vision
I feel strangely dead
I am a puppet
no strings!!
laying there in a coma
nothing to keep me alive
I feel like walking away,
away from this world
it should be easier
but so much of me wants to stay
for love is an elixir,
you’ve given me a sip
then you suddenly one day
vanish from my folk tale
leaving me alone in a closet
waking up from my coma
I feel such pain
a long road of recovery
I still stay
Sudden urge of creativity…
I’ve wanted to take few snaps at home. It was getting postponed because I was concentrating on exercising. Today I had bit of cramp in my thighs and thought what the hell, let us skip treadmill and take the camera and do something. Here are three photos that turned up. Let me know if you like any:
